onegai koto

I really really need a Doreaemon. I have an onegai koto that I couldn't ask to anyone. And I am not in a capable position to make it come true by myself.

I need the doko demo doa, the door that can leads to anywhere at the opposite side.
I really need to go to a place that was not meant for me.
I wish it was meant for me in the first place..

This feeling is so killing me that I think I should go back to the time before I was born so I could prevent it from happening so that I don't have to start to killing myself in the first place.

Doraemon ! Kite kudasai ! onegai ;____;